I don't have a passion or love for anything right now, no I'm not depressed, I'm actually doing better than usual, I just don't have any interests or hobbies I'm good at so I'm kind of just riding in the passenger seat of my own life...

I've been drawing in my sketchbook but I've been struggling with finishing drawings for a while now, but I sure as hell don't want to quit drawing. I think I just need a small break to spend time with family. oh yeah I've also been spending less time with friends mostly because I'm annoying and I don't enjoy socializing most of the time, so don't worry if I dissapear for long periods of time.

I wish everyone a happy solstice, yule, litha, christmas, hannukah and new years! I hope this year goes amazingly for you!

see ya in january ;P

I don't really celebrate christmas, i'm not even sure if i'm writing it right, but I'd like to celebrate it..... last months of the year are always really hard!!!1 so I wish everyone the best during this month, we'll get through this together. sending luv to every1!!! I'm lookin forward to seeing cute christmas art hugz hugz

character's i'm using are left and right from this drawing:

hiiiiiiii I've been super busy, i had to do some stuff at the hospital and I had two trips, i found it rly hard to find to motivation to draw honestly, I want to draw but I never want to actually finish a drawing :/ I'm in a sketch only mood...

how do you find motivation to keep drawing?

in other news, I barely ever draw my OCs because most of them are men and idk how to draw men LOL but here's two sketches of my OCs Jonas and David, they're just two normal dudes tbh.

then there's a sona sketch with some tnt cake that my friend marci requested and

the colored one is PIII from oneyplays tomodachi life videos!

sorry for inactivity, I'm cooking a couple of drawings it's just I haven't made anything worth posting lately!! here's a small look at one of the drawings :] I'm also making patches and drawings for a jacket rn soooo yeah i might still be a lil slow T_T my biggest problem is lack of ideas though..... is anyone down to collab? it's a good excuse to make me draw since it usually comes with a deadline LOL alright that's all, see ya!

check the new post if you wanna see the latest drawing (fanart request)

I'm officially back to drawing, commissions are open but not like i have them open in the wild for anyone to take in ko-fi, I have them open for private DMs from people and friends in here :] so feel free to message me if you wanna talk about it! full body colored is 13$, full body colored sketch is 8$, half body colored sketch is 6$ and full body b&w sketch is 4$.

check all the options in ko-fi (not open, need to message me first to discuss what you want!)

Ko-fi commission listings

I'm excited to start drawing again, only place you can find my drawings from now on is here in newgrounds!

I'm looking forward to interacting with you all again :D I hope you like the next few drawings that are being cooked!!

here's a sketch doodle you get for reading the post

Here's a phone doodle, it's a monkey inspired by my fashion style :D she's wearing the new dress i bought it's arriving in a few days! a and yes, i have curly hair now XD

I get my drawing tablet back this week or the next, it may even be tomorrow but nothing is confirmed! I will be opening commissions as soon as it gets here :]

I'm still getting used to drawing with a phone, this is the second drawing i've done so far but i'm having fun anyways.

update from last post, I've blocked all social media except for newgrounds and sheezyart :] I'm already doing much better, I had so much stuff eating me up from some people I knew and my deranged social media use that completely stopping the use of it made me feel instantly better xD I had already taken a big social media break before so I was aware this would happen. also I fainted twice today, it was very confusing and I still don't know why it happened but I'm feeling rly good anyways.

I'm feeling a little lonely though but I'll get used to it.

edit: Spoke about it more with my mom, I still will be trying to avoid the internet a lot but most of the rules in the original post are applied to discord and other social media, I only use newgrounds for art and talking about art so everything should be fine here.

I'm still working on my mental health, I'm doing well now but I fall back down into rly deep self destructive behaviour quite easily, you might see it reflected in my art sometimes but...

newgrounds is my safeplace, I love it here and I want to interact with you guys still in the forums and all that, I'll just probably don't contact people outside of here!

I need to make friends IRL now or I'll be so lonely...

here's an old sketch I've posted before as filler!

goodbye drawing tablet! time to go back to my roots! I don't have colored pencils rn so here are some b&w drawings i did (second is colored in ibis paint). first one is a new OC related to my vampire OC :] it's kind of like a clone

also does anyone have advice on what to do to make drawing easier with shaky hands?? my meds make my hands shaky and it makes drawing more frustrating, especially the lineart... that's all, bai bai

yep, my drawing tablet died! no drawings til I get a new one which will be pretty soon! I'm most likely going to be annoying and stream a lot now and I'll be relearning to draw traditionally :]

feel free to talk to me like always!! I may not be posting art for a bit but I still come to check art everyday!

here's some sneak peeks of a collab I'm doing with @MichiKunn !! my tablet died in the middle of the collab :(

Banshee strikes miku I was drawing when my tablet died! if you like vocaloid check the song banshee strikes :]

*face reveal and wip at the bottom*

guyz I'm working and da requestz i promise!!!! after I made the post I got a few things to do but I'm still committed to drawing the ideas you give me, I'm starting with the ghost and axolotl ideas I got!! I plan to work on them on streammm

I'm actually gonna be working on a few collabs, a twitch point redeem for a friend (oh you didn't know I streamed? follow me here! ) before I get to that and I want to finish the reference drawing for my OC.

I'm going out A LOT lately and I'm going to be super busy still with some paperwork now X_X so I'm going to be very slow, but I'll get to it eventually I promise! so please look forward to that, don't forget about me and talk to me.,..

yes, don't ever be afraid of messaging me, I love making friends and my meds don't work so I'm always hypomanic and ready to talk a bunch of random garbage... ily

I'm back to twitter, catch my random thoughts on there!! I still try to limit my internet use though, I try to scroll as little as possible but I do post whenever I want LOL I recommend to everyone to limit your social media use, I limited mine by deleting all the apps and going out a lot more. I still need to get more hobbies though.

also I'm trying a new makeup and fashion style, what do you think? I want to move on from my emo look to a more mature one, but emo will always have a big influence in my art :) any advice on makeup and fashion is appreciated, I want to look pretty now even with this face I got. at least I can try and dress well! oh and I'm sorry I look so serious, I don't look very good when I smile but I think my resting face it's ok.

thank you for reading if u did and I'm sorry for wasting ur time hope u don't mind.

hehe you're at the bottom of the post? here's a wip of the drawing I'm working on! it'll come with all the info of my vampire OC that you see so much, you'll finally get to know more about him AND you get an official design! although I'll keep drawing him in different outfits xd